Let's Catch Up
I made it through the First Trimester!
I am in my 16th week now and I am feeling so much better. I am within the "normal" range again physically, emotionally, and mentally. Although I had similar symptoms with my first pregnancy, everything has been a bit intensified for this one. I will not get into the symptomatic details, but for the past three months I have really just wanted to go to bed, stay in bed, and wake up when it was all over.
I am so grateful for my fabulous husband who has pampered and cared for me through it all. While at the same time he has put up with my wining, complaining, and overly emotional states. Although much of these "symptoms" are also within my "normal" range, they too were intensified over the past three months. Also, I am grateful for my daughter. Although I cannot say she was sympathetic to my needs - she is not even 2 years old- she gave me great reason to get out of bed each day and to at least try.
Some recent thoughts . . .
I have a great friend who often inspires me. She is very goal driven and consistently tries to be self-aware and self-actualizing. Years ago when I was going through formal education in Social Work, I too was very goal driven and strove to be self-aware. However, as time has passed and my professional career path has been delayed, for the most important and the most challenging role I will (for)ever hold - motherhood, I have become less focused on personal goal setting. As for self-awareness, learning to be a good parent, wife, and becoming a new person in the process has made me very aware of some new and old weaknesses.
Just recently, I have taken a half step back and looked at how I am doing. If I am happy. If I like who I am and who I am becoming. Which has led me to this point; it is time to set some personal goals. One of my first goals is to "start simply". I realized that I have become more of a pessimist and I am not as happy as I would like. Recognizing that this is a choice, my first new specified goal is to laugh more - read funny books, find the humor in things whenever and wherever I can, and seek out others who have a sense of humor and can laugh with me. I also want to help my daughter to find the humor in things and to laugh more with her.
So, for any of you readers who would like to support me in this goal - I would like to invite you to share with me a funny thought, story, joke (clean jokes preferred) or even just a smile :- )
Happy Birthday Rachel!
4 days ago